btw, apparently this is going around, so - shrug.

ANON POST

say what you feel, dudes. be honest. of course, if you're an asshole, i'll probably be honest right back and tell you you're being an asshole, but that's only fair.

and... go!

defriending amnesty meme

saw this elsewhere, so i thought i'd do the same - i have over 100 friends and probably talk to about 20, so i know there are people on my flist who probably don't remember why they're here, don't share any interests with me anymore, are tired of hearing about my health/my dog/baseball/whatever i'm on about today, or who just don't really wanna be here anymore for whatever reason. this is a no drama, no hard feelings defriending post. just leave me a comment so i'll know where you've gone, and all will be well. but i'm sure i'll miss you D:

but also -

friending post!

i'm sure i don't have many people following my journal atm, as it is friendslocked, but if you happen to be someone who's lurked around and thought about friending me but haven't (i don't know why you would be, but there you go), drop me a comment and let's be friends! i don't bite, and i'm not as boring as you might think.

... well, yes, i am. but friend me anyway!

as requested by anglepoiselamp:

( lindy does tricks! )

my bebeh so smart.

ps: what the ass, hotmail. what the ass. i really do need to make the gmail switch someday soon.

A quiet love meme.

One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind you how great you are.

Comments are screened so only I will know if nobody feels like catering to my demands for coddling.

my sinuses are getting bad again. love me? <3

guess who got a bath today?

( cutieface! )

i know i say it every day, but I LOVE MY LINDY SO MUCH! ♥

also, lordy lord, he needs a haircut. no groomer appts until march 4th. headdesk.

puppy on my aaaaaaarm. typing hard.

but the point of this entry - middlerelief. raise your hand if you saw it coming!

lindy's napping beside me on the couch, so i'm able to sneak on and post some pictures =D

( lindy's first day at home. )

he's walking on a leash and occasionally obeying commands now, and i coaxed him into some food and water, although he still hasn't gone. i just keep taking him outside until he does.

i love him ♥

Get your own valentinr

valentine me?

(dulcinea's my penname. i didn't realize my login name was the one that'd show up on the valentine. whoops.)

ps:

tell me a secret, flist. or just tell me something. anon commenting on, ip logging off, as always.

these are always good for the soul. and pass it on, okay? let your own friends get something off their chests too <3

when in doubt, meme.

One question. One chance. One honest answer.

That's all you get. Ask me one question. Any one question, anything, no matter how crazy or intrusive it is. I will give you an honest, straight answer.

Anonymous commenting is on (and IP logging off as always) - if you want to sneak in more than one question, I'll never know if you ask it anonymously, but the catch here is I can choose to cowardly not answer anonymous questions, just 'cause.

i never get many questions on these, but i still like 'em. help me drag my ass away from rp for awhile! it's eaten my braaaaaain.

LET'S RING IN SOME

HONESTY

WITH THE NEW YEAR

THE MEME

how 'bout it? i know, i can't resist these.

oh for god's sake, canada.

i'm gonna take some drugs and sleep all day.

ps: ASK ME ANYTHING (NO, REALLY!) MEME! Simply put, ask me about anything: an opinion on something, something about myself, anything you want to hear my take on, and I will answer to the best of my abilities! 'cause i'm bored and kind of too high to do anything that requires thought. anon commenting is on, so go big.

Sock Monkey Sale

As mentioned yesterday, I've got three homemade sock monkeys for sale. For ease of shipping, I'm going to try and sell them as a set first - if no one goes for the set, then I'll sell them individually. I'll be running this like an auction, so if you're interested, check the bid of the comment before yours and bid away!

Opening bid - $40 for the set.

( The story of the monkeys. )

( The monkeys. )

i like this meme.

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.

Post anonymously [by selecting the anonymous box]. Speak honestly, because there isn't any censure here. Post as many times as you like. One faceless wonder to another. You don't have to be on my friends list. You can just be stopping through. It doesn't matter.

And then, pass it on.

one year ago today, i was at my parents' place in merritt, and i rather awkwardly tried to tell them that i had met someone. this girl. who kind of lived across the continent in the united states. my parents are my parents, so nothing either shocks or bothers them as long as it's clear that i'm happy, but they are old-fashioned enough that they wanted to know in what exact context i KNEW this girl.

and i didn't really know. so i frowned, went inside to the computer, steeled up all my resolve, and asked jenny to be my girlfriend.

all i knew at the time was that she e-mailed me back and said yes, and i danced around the house giddily and hugged my parents and they never said 'what have you gotten yourself into, how will this work, when will you see her, you don't even know her' - they said 'i'm glad you're happy.'

what i know now is that jenny started to cry, and she (who was also visiting a parental figure) sat with her mother and cried with happiness and apprehension and everything you feel when you make a decision that could potentially change your life either for the worse or for the better, and her mom told her to go for it.

i kind of feel like parents are largely responsible for this day. but so are we, because we did what we had to do: we cherished happiness and our special bond rather than brooding over loneliness and the ache of being apart. we shared the things we loved eagerly, and the things that had hurt us in the past with the same open ease. we sacrificed in order to see one another, and we continue to do so, because we know that one day it will simply be life, she and i, together all the time. something to look forward to rather than long for, as she would say.

and me? i feel like i never even knew myself until i met jenny. suddenly i am beautiful, and strong, and resourceful, and maybe i need a little nudge in the right direction sometimes but it's no great inconvenience when that happens. i am worthy of love, and i am loved, and i really believe both. and i want to get better, even better, shake off all my old scars and fears and everything, which i know she will always help me do. if this ends tomorrow or lasts forever, i will always look at this year as a time that changed my life in so many ways, all of them positive.

i love you, jenny. happy one-year anniversary.

oh my god, bluejays.com, give me something. i don't care if it's vague and maddening like 'still in talks', or 'not looking as likely', or 'waiting for news', i just want SOMETHING to know this thing is either still alive or dead once and for all. GIMME SOMETHING.

in other news, i got acupuncture for the first time yesterday. life experiences we all should have, eh? i had this knot in my shoulder/neck that hurt like fuck and had my neck's range of motion at almost nil, so i finally broke down and got olav to check out my neck (we get free physio anyway, dunno why i didn't do it earlier). it turns out that i have some kind of forward curvature to my neck, partially natural and partially from bad posture (letting my head slip too far forward when i'm reading/at the computer/etc), so he corrected that and used the acupuncture to loosen up the knot a little. it feels better today, and honestly, the range of motion in my neck is so good it's actually a little creepy. i feel kind of like an owl, swiveling my head around without any pain or tightness. i guess he really is the miracle worker the patients always call him ;D

is it serious? nah. either i can manually correct my posture through close attention and conscious correction, or i can keep getting knots and having him fix them. i'm already trying to sit up straighter at the computer and such, might as well.

now i should finish my laundry before work. meh. *tears face from bluejays.com*